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Rosh Hashanah Day 1 5773 – The God
Particle
By Rabbi Joshua Hammerman
I savor this
opportunity to wish you all a Shanah Tova - because this may be the final time
we’re all together to do that....at least if the Mayan calendar is to be
believed.
According to
an ancient Mayan prophecy, there will be no more new years. Forget about
next Rosh Hashanah…. We won't even reach January 1. The world will
come to an end, the prophecy states, on December 21 of this year. So
we will have Hanukkah. All eight
days. But no Christmas. Just saying...
I'm a pretty
skeptical guy, and I was skeptical of this prophecy that we won't make it to
the next New Year, until I heard the stunning news this past April that Dick
Clark had died. Coincidence? New
Years Eve somehow survived the passing of Guy Lombardo. But Dick Clark?
I'm not so sure.
So as I
speak to you this morning, there is a great uncertainty, one that transcends
all the economic and political turmoil, one that exceeds even the great angst
we feel about Iran, and do we ever - and
about Syria and Egypt and Libya - and about Israel herself.
Will any of
that matter six months from now? Will we all be here? The liturgy does
little to comfort us, what with the Unetane Tokef prayer that we just
chanted, asking the very same question, and crying out "Who shall live and
who shall die?” Mi Yichye um Yamut?
“Who by
Fire and Who by Water?” “Mi Ba-eshu mi ba-mayim?”
This past
summer, I traveled to Colorado for a family bat mitzvah, and the smoky stench
of Rocky Mountain wildfires asphyxiated downtown Denver. In that thin air, it
was hard to breathe. A few weeks later, I performed a wedding in Barbados
(Yes, it’s a tough job… but give me a break.
Most of my business trips are to cemeteries in Queens). Twelve hours
after we left the island, it was hit by a tropical storm. Within the course of a few precious weeks this
summer, then, I literally lived this prayer – Mi Ba-eshu mi ba-mayim?”
“Who by fire and who by water?” That was
nearly me – both times.
Mi B’Kitzo – umi lo B’kitzo?” “Who will die at his natural time,
and whose life will be cut short abruptly?”
On our way
from Denver airport, we drove through Aurora, having no idea that just days after
our departure, it would become yet another metaphor for the madness is
overcoming our society.
Mi Lo
B’Kitzo?
In Israel with
our group last month, we visited Yad Vashem, along with the site of Prime
Minister Rabin's murder in Tel Aviv. And
then we went to Mount Herzl and saw too many graves of soldiers who died way
before their time. And then, we brought gifts and support to Israeli soldiers
up on the Lebanese border. And I greeted these amazing soldiers, youth
and promise personified, kids who should be dressing for the prom, and instead are
weighed down with weapons and gear and the uncertainties of the world on their
shoulders - knowing that at any time, the battle of their lives could begin.
And I wondered, quietly, through my smiles, who among this group of half
dozen, in one year’s time, might be resting on Mount Herzl?
Mi
B’Kitzo, umi Lo B’kitzo?
Maybe the
Mayans are onto something. Maybe Unetane Tokef is too. In
Israel, go into a supermarket and you'll see a version of this prayer
everywhere. Not exactly Unetane Tokef; but Pag Tokef.
A pag tokef is an expiration date. This prayer reminds us that
we all have one. We sit there on the shelf, waiting to be summoned to the task
at hand, not wanting to spoil or go stale.
Most of us
don't know when our pag tokef is. Steve Jobs knew. Jobs died this
past year after a long bout with pancreatic cancer. But as early as 2005, he could tell a goup of
students at Stanford, “Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important
tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because
almost everything, all external expectations, all pride, all fear of
embarrassment or failure, these things just fall away in the face of death,
leaving only what is truly important.”
Now, thanks
to the Mayans, and to Unetane Tokef, we all wander in the valley of the shadow
of death, as we approach December 21, 2012.
Steve Job’s
expiration date was much too soon. So
was my father’s, and with each passing year I get closer to the age when he
passed. While I'm not a believer that biology is destiny, the approach of that
date makes me even more keenly aware of the impact of everything I do. I see
that pag tokef in front of me.
Each of us
is one day closer to that expiration date than we were when we woke up
yesterday, one hour closer than when we began musaf. The High Holidays,
more than anything else, are designed to remind us of that simple, clear fact.
Rabbi Eliezer stated that we should repent one day before our death. “Does then one know on what day he will
die?" his students asked. "All the more reason he should repent
today, lest he die tomorrow" (Shabbat 153a).
We should
examine our deeds every single day – because every day could be our pag tokef,
our expiration date.
We must take
what seems like a predetermined destiny and read it instead as a moral call to
arms. It’s not that we will die because
our time has come. It’s that we assert
through the sheer force of human will that can reverse that evil decree. We will not submit to any ancient prophecy or
the dictates of our DNA. We will live –
And not just today and tomorrow – but on December 22nd too. We will prove the Mayans wrong! Our time has
not yet come.
When my
father died, it was not that his time had come.
It is because his rheumatic heart gave out and heart transplantation had
not yet advanced to where it is today.
When 12 precious
souls died in Aurora, it was not because it was their destiny. It was because a single crazy person got a
hold of enough ammo to terrorize a hundred movie theaters, and he did the
unthinkable.
When 7 died
at the Sikh temple in Oak Creek Wisconsin, or the four Americans in Libya last
week, it was not because God willed it, but because bigotry and hatred reigned
in the heart of the shooters.
They all
died “lo b’kitzo,” not in their time.
Unetane
Tokef is a call to arms against the determinism of the Mayan calendar. It is a call to live with dignity and
compassion for however many days we have left.
It is a call not to be preoccupied by the precise date of our death, but
always to have awareness that it could be any day.
But really,
should I be blaming the Mayans here? I
did some exhaustive research on the Mayan Apocalypse – OK, I Googled it – and I
discovered something very interesting.
The whole thing might just be a misunderstanding of the ancient Mayans’
intent. According to Guatamalan author
Carlos Barrios, the famous date of December 21, 2012 marks not the end of time
as Hollywood would imagine it, but the beginning of a change in consciousness, when
“a new socioeconomic order will arise in harmony with Mother Earth.” There are a number of beliefs in regard to
this December; all revolving around the winter solstice coinciding with the
Earth’s being located at a point of particular balance, midway through the
Milky Way.
Other
traditions also see this as a time of spiritual transformation for the
world. In India, over 15 million Hindus
consider Guru Kalki Bhagavan to be the incarnation of the god Vishnu and
believe that 2012 marks the end of the Kali Yuga, or degenerate age.
What we have
with the Mayans, then, at least in some people’s estimation, are cycles of
creation and destruction, but leading not to an ultimate apocalypse, but rather
a time of eternal peace and bliss – a better time, not an end time at
all. It all sounds very, well, Jewish.
Midrash
Genesis Rabbah cites Rabbi Avahu’s claim that God created numerous universes
prior to the creation of this one. Each time God created a universe, something
went wrong and the experiment was discarded.
But when this one was created, God looked around and saw that it was Tov
Me’od, very good. This one was a
keeper. This one God could work with.
What a great
midrash. It teaches that that, for the
rabbis, not even God could determine in advance whether a given world would
work out. It was not a given that any
world would survive or be destroyed.
There were apocalypses aplenty.
But this one, the world we inhabit, has not been destroyed. Why?
Because people have demonstrated a capacity to grow and change. A will that can overcome even the dictates of
one’s own biological or social predispositions. Because teshuvah has entered the
world. Because we’ve learned how to
press on.
Don’t get me
wrong. I’m not claiming that this is the
dawning of the Age of Aquarius, just that I feel I can say with a degree of confidence that we will wake upon
December 22 and the world will still be here.
They
discovered the God particle this summer.
And it was a big deal. I tried to
get my arms around the concept. I
Googled it. Evidently, in my layman’s
understanding, this particle somehow takes mass and propels it into
energy. It propels everything forward,
and in doing so, it enables existence to happen. Maybe this little particle,
writ large, is that thing that pushes us to get up when we’ve fallen,
like that panic button seniors wear – you know, “I’ve fallen and I can’t get
up.”
But we
can! We can get up. Even if we are
physically unable to rise from the floor, there is something pushing us to live
on. We’ve got the God particle. And
we’ve learned this summer that not only is it in our DNA, it’s in every
atom. BECAUSE WE ALWAYS HAVE TO GET
UP. WE HAVE TO FIGHT THOSE FORCES THAT KEEP PUSHING US DOWN. WE
ALWAYS HAVE TO KEEP MOVING FORWARD. We always have to change. Past does
not need to be prologue. There can
always be a brighter future. But only if
we push that button and get up.
That button
– that sound - TEKIYAH – wake up! I’ve
fallen but I can’t get up!
SHEVARIM! I’m broken and I
can’t get up! Teruah! I’m crying
– I’m sobbing and I can’t get up. And
yet we do get up.
And yet
we do get up.
When we say
Kaddish, we activate that God particle within us. Yitgadal V’Yitkadash Shmay Rabbah. We say it again and again and it lifts us, as
we try to reestablish the reign of sanctity and order, to overcome the chaos of
death. We say it in the Amida – God is
what lifts us – Somech noflim, and heals us – rofeh cholim – and
releases us “matir asurim.” As
Judaic scholar Eitan Fishbane describes it, “God is the space within the
inextricable threads of life. God is the mystery that pulsates at the
core of our living and our dying.”
The God
particle is within us. It propels us to
rise, but we only can rise as an act of will. Author Sam Harris wrote in his book called
“Free Will” - “Free will is an illusion. Thoughts and intentions emerge from background
causes of which we are unaware and over which we exert no conscious control.”
The instinct
to live does go beyond free will. We
recognize that when we try to hold our breath.
But to rise, when you’ve fallen and can’t get up, THAT does take an act
of will.
We never
stop moving forward. We never stop
changing. We never stop growing.
Last May, I
had the unique experience of moving both my son and my mother to new homes - on
the same day. And I moved the other
son, Dan, a week earlier from his dorm so that he could help me move
Ethan and my Mom. What an incredible experience. My mother had decided it was time to leave an
apartment she had called home for over 30 years. It was time.
So she moved back from Newton to Brookline, into a wonderful senior
housing facility right near my brother’s group home and just around the block
from the shul where I grew up, where my father was the cantor. It was hard for her to downsize, to shed the belongings
of a long life well lived, souvenirs of her past and mine.
But, now that it’s all behind us, and her
condo was sold, she has not been happier in years. She may have fallen, but she has gotten up.
Just before
Dan and I left her on that moving day, I looked up and saw something that shook
me to the core. Dan was making her
bed. He made her bed, just as his
parents had done for him when we left him at college; just as so many of us
have done for our kids on the first day of camp – and just as my mother had
done for me. With hospital corners. She always insisted on hospital corners. It was like we were leaving her at camp.
Such a
simple, mundane thing, but such an intimate, loving gesture. It’s all about
creating order out of the chaos of life, preparing the way for the next stage
of the journey.
It occurred
to me that life comes down to a series of beds made, beds messed up and beds made
again. Our parents keep making our beds,
and we make our children’s and then they make ours. And finally, we make our parents’ beds.
Until that
day we shovel earth into that final bed, tucking a loved one in one last time.
All the soldiers’
graves on Mount Herzl look like neatly made beds.
And while my
mother adjusts to her new life in her old age, and my sons adjust to their
dorms and try to chart their futures, here I am. The bed-maker in chief. The only one not actually moving, but who
still must always be changing. Judaism
is an anchor too. It gives the illusion
of stability while shifting just as radically as everything else.
Psalm 19
speaks of the circuitous journey of the sun across the skies, like a bridegroom
bursting forth from his wedding chamber to take on the dizzying rat race. But, the Psalmist then adds,
תּוֹרַת יְהוָה תְּמִימָה, מְשִׁיבַת נָפֶשׁ – God’s Torah is complete, giving
stability to life.
The God
particle keeps us moving forward, but the Torah provides us with the ballast to
gain firm footing as we move onward…
And upward.
It occurs to
me that there just may be an upward slope to history. Not something God determined, but God
propelled. A world of peace and harmony
is hardly a given. But this God
particle. This thing that drives us
forward. There is something to it. There is something magical about the human
capacity for goodness and I daresay that it is winning out – perhaps just as
the Mayans predicted. Perhaps there is a
new era at hand – though I doubt it will begin with a fanfare on December 21.
Martin
Luther King Jr proclaimed famously that the “the arc of the moral universe is
long, but it bends toward justice.” I see some truth to that. We’ve made great advances in equal rights,
for instance. But in Jewish tradition,
justice is only half the battle. For
Jews, the arc of the moral universe must bend, at least as much, toward love.
And that is
what is happening as we approach the end of 2012. There are some small signs that all is not
lost.
This year,
Jerusalem climber Nadav ben Yehuda was set to become, at 24, the youngest
Israeli ever to conquer Mount Everest, and only the 5th of all time. But he prepared for his final ascent; he saw
a few feet away, a Turkish climber named Aydin Irmak who lay there, dying. He had fallen and he couldn’t get up. He chose to forgo the climb and took the Turk
on his back, tying the nearly lifeless body to his harness and then dragging
him down to the mountain base camp eight hours away. Israel and Turkey have been having tough
times lately, but Nadav explained his heroic deed very simply to the Jerusalem
Report. “Aydin Irmak was my friend.”
The arc is bending
toward love.
Over here,
when we read about Israel, it’s usually in the context of tension and
strife. And there is certainly enough to
go around. We are all desperately
worried about Iran’s pursuit of nuclear weapons and what the world will do about
it. On every border, Israel feels the
tension, and the Palestinian Authority is also showing signs of fraying, even
as it continues to incite hatred against Jews.
Internally there is tension too. I was at the Kotel last month when four members of the Women of the Wall were arrested for the horrible crime of wearing a tallit. This, in a Jewish state? And that same week, a 17 year old Arab Jamal Julani, was attacked by a mob of Jewish youth and an Arab taxi driver and six members of the Palestinian Ghayada family were severely burned by a Molotov cocktail tossed at them in Gush Etzion. A week later, Jews defaced a Trappist monastery in Latrun, and then a mosque in Hebron. There is tension.
Internally there is tension too. I was at the Kotel last month when four members of the Women of the Wall were arrested for the horrible crime of wearing a tallit. This, in a Jewish state? And that same week, a 17 year old Arab Jamal Julani, was attacked by a mob of Jewish youth and an Arab taxi driver and six members of the Palestinian Ghayada family were severely burned by a Molotov cocktail tossed at them in Gush Etzion. A week later, Jews defaced a Trappist monastery in Latrun, and then a mosque in Hebron. There is tension.
But the Israel
I saw and the one our group saw was something very different from all
this. Arabs and Jews were mixing
everywhere. With minimal security
detectable. The beach in Tel Aviv – the
world’s first all Jewish city – was filled with Palestinians from the West
Bank, many of whom had never seen the seashore before. Many of whom had never seen a bikini. We drove up north and the traffic was
impossible. I’ve never seen Tiberias so
busy. Again, Jews and Arabs
together.
In honor of
the Muslim holiday of Id al-Fitr, ending Ramadan, Israel had issued 130,000
entrance permits to residents of the territories. This wasn’t exactly the lion dwelling with
the lamb, but it was very encouraging. And
it was shocking, how normal it felt. No fear, very little police presence
visible. This must be what peace feels
like, I thought. And maybe a sign, a
small sign that the God particle is propelling us forward. Knesset Speaker Reuven Rivlin, in an act
worthy of the High Holidays, visited one of the victims of the Zion Square mob
attack in the hospital and told him, “We are sorry… What happened is the
responsibility of every leader and member of Knesset.” And even on the
pluralism front, there is progress. Some
non orthodox rabbis are being paid by the state, at long last, Israelis are
engaged as never before in a serious conversation about women’s rights and the
role of haredim in the military.
And in Gush Etzion,
Efrat resident Yitzchak Sokoloff, who some of us know, reports that following the
firebombing of the Palestinian taxi, “Local rabbis and other writers published
articles and gave sermons condemning the attack. Several local schools
have made the attack a central topic for discussion and condemnation. A
good number of local residents, myself among them, took it upon themselves
to visit the Ghayada family at Hadassah Hospital and there is an
active car pool in place of Jewish volunteers ferrying members of the extended
family back and forth to the hospital.”
“For all of my
discomfort,” Yitzchak adds, “I was heartened by my visit to Hadassah Hospital. I sat with Bassam , the driver of the taxi,
who was himself severely burned. He welcomed
me with tears in his eyes and spoke with equal sadness about the violence perpetrated
by Jews and by Arabs.”
We’ve seen too
many examples of anti-Semitism this year, most especially the terror attacks on
a Jewish school in Toulouse, France and Israeli tourists in Bulgaria. But two weeks ago, 1,000 Berliners gathered in
the city’s Schöneberg district to demonstrate against anti-Semitism, following
an attack on a rabbi. A thousand Berliners. Many of them wore yarmulkes to demonstrate
their support. The city’s largest daily
proclaimed, “Berlin wears a Kippah.”
Maybe the
tide is turning.
We held an Interfaith
Seder here last March. Over a 120 people, all faiths and
ethnicities. That all grew out of our
September 11 service last fall, which led to our interfaith Comparative
Religions class and, as we’ve seen, to our choir this morning. How meaningful it is to be able to pray with
our neighbors alongside us. And I say to
them, “Welcome.” Welcome! Let us work
together to bend that arc of the moral universe toward love.
The
conventional wisdom is that religion has radicalized in the post modern world. There
are those who seek to use religion as a lever to divide us rather than as a
banner to unite us. I know that the
temptation among many people is to see the damage that has been done in God’s
name and to flee all faith. Even easier during
this past week.
But religion
has a role to play – a very important role – in a world of upheaval. It can help bring people together. As Andrew Sullivan wrote recently in Newsweek,
“The thirst for God is still there. How could it not be, when the profoundest
human questions—Why does the universe exist rather than nothing? How did
humanity come to be on this remote blue speck of a planet? What happens to us
after death?—remain as pressing and mysterious as they’ve always been?”
I plead
with all of you – do not lose faith…in faith. We are not sliding toward apocalypse.
The capacity
for kindness is there. The capacity for
inclusiveness is there. The capacity for
love is there. It is embedded in every
strand of our DNA – in every atom of existence.
It is the God particle, and it is in us all. When love and courage win out, we can ask the
old question, is it odd or is it God? I
don’t know, but I do believe, to cite a popular phrase from this year, that the
odds are increasingly in our favor.
We can’t let
hatred and despair win.
This past
July, thousands gathered in Columbus Park for “Alive at Five” to hear Matisyahu
the very popular Jewish reggae singer – what a great thing - let me just reiterate
that - what an amazing city we live in, where all different kinds of people can
work together. If I’m going to die on
Dec. 21, I couldn’t pick a better place to spend my final days.
At the concert, the throngs of young fans were
whipped into a frenzy, totally focused on the performer (though I wasn’t thrilled
at some of the liquid refreshment being shared and traces of smoke that did not
appear to be of the medicinal variety). And they were singing about, well,
Jewish things, like the part of the Jewish calendar that we had just entered, the
Three Weeks marking the destruction of the temples.
Jerusalem,
if I forget you,
let my right hand forget what it’s supposed to do.
let my right hand forget what it’s supposed to do.
That’s what
he sang. Put yourself in my shoes.
Any rabbi would absolutely sell his soul to be among thousands of people, literally
thousands, primarily 20 and 30-somethings, Jews and non Jews, swaying, hugging
and singing about Tisha B’Av – and Jerusalem.
And he had
us all dreaming of a better world with his rousing finale, “One Day,” a song made
famous at the Vancouver Olympics, a song that echoes the optimism that Jews
have carried through centuries of darkness.
Sometimes
in my tears I drown
But I never let it get me down
So when negativity surrounds
I know someday it'll all turn around because
All my life I been waiting for
I been prayin for
For the people to say
That we don't want to fight no more
They'll be no more wars
And our children will play
One day, One day, One day…
But I never let it get me down
So when negativity surrounds
I know someday it'll all turn around because
All my life I been waiting for
I been prayin for
For the people to say
That we don't want to fight no more
They'll be no more wars
And our children will play
One day, One day, One day…
One day….
He kept
singing it over and over. One day. One day.
Over and over. One day…Hayom…Hayom…
And I’m standing
there in the middle of the crowd singing with the guy next to me who must be wondering
who this old guy is – and he’s singing and everyone is singing.
And it makes
me think of those beautiful Israeli soldiers on the Lebanese border, and those
Sikhs in Wisconsin and those kids in Aurora and those Americans in Libya, and that
Arab taxi driver and those Israeli and Turkish mountain climbers – and the people
who are still out of work and the people who are sick and the people who’ve been
bullied and the people who have fallen and they keep getting up!
And I think
of my son, making his grandmother’s bed. And God, reinventing the world, making our bed.
The Arc of American
history may bend toward justice. And the arc of Mayan history may bend
toward apocalypse. But the arc of Jewish
History bends toward love – and it bends toward hope.
It will get
better. It will change – the word shanah means change - It will get better.
Today.
Tomorrow. V’im lo machar az
machartayim…. If not tomorrow, then the day after… If not Tishei 1, then December 21… Eventually,
inevitably, the God particle will propel us forward. The fallen will rise.
One day.
Amen.
Rosh Hashanah Day 2 5773 – Many
Paths, No Shortcuts
By Rabbi Joshua Hammerman
When last we
met, I ended yesterday’s sermon with a reference to last summer’s “Alive at
Five” concert here in Stamford featuring Matisyahu. So let’s pick up the tale from there. If you were at the concert, you might have
been surprised at how the singer looked.
Where there had once been a long scraggly beard and black frock of a
Hasidic disciple, now Matisyahu has forsaken the messianic for the messy and
shed his 18th century Polish garb and the Brooklyn beard for
the windblown blonde coif of a newly minted Californian.
“No more Chassidic reggae superstar,”
Matisyahu wrote on his Web site. “Sorry folks, all you get is me … no alias.”
One
commenter on his Web site wrote, “As a huge fan of your music and your personal
voyage, I’m pretty confused right now.” Another said, “I am so sad that you did
this. ... I can’t even breathe.”
Matisyahu,
with or without the beard, is one of the best ambassadors to the younger
generation that we Jews have, and he takes his role seriously. But without the
beard, he is something different.
The
Beardless One still observes Shabbat and eats kosher. He sends his kids
to Jewish schools. He honors his parents. And he prays.
But the
Beardless One does things that the Ba’al Teshuvah could not do. His
transformation communicates a passionate desire to continually grow and never
to fall into stale patterns. He won’t allow his physical appearance to
BECOME him. He has forsaken dogmatic certainty and halachic purity for a pinch
of doubt and a dose of theological humility, and these have brought him to a
deeper, more spiritual and more authentic Jewish place – more authentic for
himself and for his children.
As he stated
in a recent interview:
“When you
are raised in a religious family, you learn that there is no alternative, (that there is only) one ultimate truth.
I’ve had to talk to my kids and explain that maybe that’s not so.
Basically what I tell them is that no one can ever be sure of anything — and in
this life, your teachers, parents, yourself — you can have your own ideas, your
own opinions, intuitions feelings, etc., whatever it is. But never to be too sure of yourself and never
to be too sure of anyone because, at the end of the day, we don’t know.”
No doubt the
facial hair will return, as he himself as promised. But that’s OK.
He’s already shown us that the beard and black frock are not necessarily the
journey’s end for any Ba’al Teshuvah, and that the process of Teshuvah in
fact never ends. It involves an eternal struggle with a tradition
that is itself constantly evolving and with an elusive God who persistently
refuses to be painted in anything other than infinite shades of gray.
You thought
there were only fifty shades of gray!
According to our sources, every letter of the Torah is painted in at
least seventy shades.
I love this
Matisyahu. He is the rabbi of the
real. He is the professor of perplexity,
the discourser of doubt.
As today’s
Torah reading commences, Abraham and Isaac’s journey is a nice guide on how NOT
to do religious education. The pattern
is clearly set: Abraham demonstrates, Isaac acquiesces and the two move forward
together. Sounds like Hebrew School of the 1950s.
Va’Vayelchu
Shnayhem Yachdav –
that’s the key phrase, repeated in verses six and eight. In verse 6, Abraham takes the wood, the
firestone and the knife, and the two walk off together. In verse 7, Isaac asks a question. It’s the only time Isaac speaks in the whole
Akeda episode. He says, “I see the firestone and the wood, but where’s the
sacrifice, Daddy?”
He asks the
right question. Although I might have
asked, “Daddy, the last time you used that knife, I was 8 days old and it didn’t
feel very good. Are you planning to do
THAT again? (You know in New York you have to sign a consent form!)”
In verse 8,
Abraham gives him the worst possible reply:
אֱלֹהִים
יִרְאֶה-לּוֹ הַשֶּׂה לְעֹלָה, בְּנִי
“God will provide!” “God will take care of the sheep.”
And then that
phrase repeats…. “Vayelchu shnayhem yachdav.” The two walked on together. And there are no more questions by
Isaac. Nothing. The two never speak together in the Torah
text again.
Rashi
speculates that the phrase is repeated twice because by the time it was
mentioned for the second time, Isaac was in complete lockstep with his dad. The two had become one.
Wishful
thinking. It may have worked in Hebrew Schools of the 1950s, but not
today. Abraham wouldn’t have lasted a
week with our upper grades.
His response
to Isaac’s challenging question was atrocious.
It was the equivalent of what we do when our kids ask a question we
don’t want to answer. We say, “We’ll
see.” Or “Because I said so.” But in
adding God to the equation, Abraham knew that Isaac would not be able to follow
up, because a follow-up question would be a challenge either to his father’s
faith or to God’s ability to provide. Basically
he cut off discussion. Isaac was
stuck. “God will provide.” His instinct
to ask deep, probing religious questions was snuffed out. One could make the claim that Isaac was
sacrificed then and there. His religious
growth was snipped off like that foreskin at eight days. His individuality had been sacrificed at the
altar of conformity. The two protagonists
in fact did walk off as one, because one of them was no longer there. Isaac was already gone.
And indeed,
as we saunter through the next several chapters, Isaac is portrayed as a
caretaker, physically and spiritually blind, incapable of doing the one thing
that he was asked to do – choose his own heir.
Lacking a base of spiritual questioning and mature doubt, he picks the shallow
Esau over the questioner, Jacob. He
picks the wrong one.
If only
Isaac had run from Abraham instead of walking in lockstep. If only he had scampered onto the synagogue
roof like the troubled Hebrew School student in Philip Roth’s classic short
story, “The Conversion of the Jews.”
Ozzie runs to the roof and threatens to jump until he gets his rabbi to
promise never again to hit anyone about God. That short story was central to my religious
development. I long ago made that very
same pledge. And I’ve kept it.
What is
mature religious growth? The path
Matisyahu is on, to be sure. He still
happens to be observant, but perhaps not as consistent. He wears no kipah. He keeps kosher to a slightly modified degree
and he does not perform on Shabbat. He’s
on a journey and so are we all. We are
all on different paths.
So I have
two messages today. Message number
one: We should never hit anyone
about God, because there are many kinds of Jews and many ways to be Jewish. Many legitimate ways. I might not agree
with all of them, but that does not make them less legitimate. The current denominational labels don’t even
come close to defining them. There are infinite shades of Jewishness and an infinite
variety of Jews.
There are
certain minimal standards that I adhere to, and that my movement adheres
to. Certain expectations or aspirations
in areas of ritual and interpersonal and social ethics. They are important, and they’ve been nicely
defined in the movement’s new guide to religious practice, “The Observant
Life,” a great book that I’ll be teaching this coming fall in one of our adult
education series.
But not all
Jews fit into that neat package.
As I
mentioned yesterday, I recently performed a wedding in Barbados. The wedding
was held at the oldest synagogue in the western hemisphere, called Nidhe
Yisrael, which tellingly means “scattered of Israel.” It is a Jewish community with an amazing
story. The name “Barbados” means
“Bearded Ones,” referring to the plentiful fig trees, and so it was fitting
that the bearded people came to the place of the bearded tree in 1654, to
escape from the Portuguese Inquisition, which had made it to their prior refuge
of Recife, Brazil.
I was surprised to read in the museum adjacent to the shul that all the Jews who arrived were Conversos, also called Marranos and Crypto Jews. In other words, Jews of Barbados were descendants of those who had publically professed Christianity but privately followed Jewish practice, only then to face the wrath of the Inquisition, first in Spain, then in Portugal, then in Brazil. I double checked this with my friend, historian Jonathan Sarna, and he confirmed that it was likely that most if not all of the Jews of Barbados had "converso backgrounds." Expelled, tortured and ridiculed, they found freedom on this island, and only then, after a century of wandering, could they return to an open expression of their Jewish heritage.
The floors
of most Caribbean synagogues are made of sand.
Why? Not so they can come in
right off the beach. They are made of sand to muffle the noise. Not to draw attention to themselves.
Ever the
outsiders, Conversos were the Jew’s Jews.
They couldn’t even be insiders among the group of outcasts known as the
Jewish people. Later, this group fled
Barbados and moved up the Atlantic to found new synagogues in far off places
like Newport, Rhode Island and New Amsterdam.
Yes, the
first Jews to come to our American shores were not really Jews at all. But they were! And they are a lot like us.
Listen to
this quote from French writer and historian Jacques Attali, describing the
Conversos, a quote fond at the museum on Barbados. “Raised in a climate of
doubt, torn between two religions, ever vigilant, seeking novelty in the empty shells
left by others’ certainties, …capable of appreciating, accepting, believing in
contradictory things, they invented the scientific mind and become the most
emancipated minds of our time.”
Jon Entine,
author of Abraham’s Children: Race, Identity, and the DNA of The Chosen
People, claims that these original Conversos did not just disappear. No. He cites DNA research suggesting that there
may be as many as 10 million Brazilians who are descended from Jews.
Rabbi Barbara
Aiello has been doing DNA research in the Italian region of Calabria, a hilly
region on the toe of Italy’s boot where Sephardic Jews fled, only to encounter
a renewed Inquisition there. Aiello
organizes Shabbat retreats and revives traditions such as Hamishi seder, a
crypto-Jewish Passover gathering that was celebrated on the fifth night, rather
than first, when it was less likely to be noticed. “We’re all bnei anusim
[children of forced conversion] and we had our roots stolen from us,” she says.
“There are Jews like me across Italy, and it’s my goal to re-sew them into the
tapestry of the Jewish people.”
There are many ways to be Jewish, many types of Jews and – many paths to Jewish destiny. We’re all bnei anusim.
Everywhere
you turn these days, there are remarkable stories of lost Jews finding their
way back – generations later. This is
not a purely Sephardic phenomenon.
A Catholic
woman in Poland died not long ago, survived by her husband and granddaughter. The
family opened the will and there, at the very end, is the revelation that the
woman had been Jewish all along. She
wanted her granddaughter to know.
This news
sends the granddaughter and grandfather into a real hysteria. This can't
be. The granddaughter gets control of herself and tries to console her
grandfather. "There there, grandpa. It'll be okay."
He then exclaims," No, you don't understand. I'm Jewish, too!"
This story was
related by the granddaughter herself to her guide on a Birthright Israel trip a
few years ago. Her guide told our guide
who told the story to our group last month at Yad Vashem. And now I’m telling you.
Approximately
4,000 registered Jews currently live in Poland, but community leaders suspect
that tens of thousands of Poles may not have identified as Jewish. In August, 25
people traveled to Israel on a trip for Poles with newly discovered Jewish
roots. They are called “The Hidden Jews
of Poland.” The trip’s organizer said, "There can be no sweeter revenge
for what was done to us seven decades ago in Poland than to reconnect as many
of these young Polish Jews as possible with Israel and the Jewish people.”
And speaking
of Birthright Israel, this year Birthright brought its 300,000th
young Jew to our homeland - Jews from Poland and Greece and France, from
Argentina and Mexico and Brazil, and from Stamford and Norwalk and Greenwich - many,
if not most of them, rediscovering their Jewish roots and reconnecting with
Jewish destiny.
New York
Times writer Doreen
Carvajal recently wrote a memoir called “The Forgetting River,” about
discovering her own Jewish past in Spain. She had been brought up Catholic and
only late in life did start collecting the “nagging clues of a very clandestine
identity.”
She quotes a phrase from T.
S. Eliot:
“And the end
of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started, and know the place for
the first time.”
It sounds
like a Jewish journey. Like the kind we
are all on, no matter what our observance level.
Laurel
Snyder author of the children’s book “Baxter, the Pig Who Wanted to Be Kosher,”
wrote recently on the CNN Belief blog, that she was having trouble figuring out
the role of kashrut in her family’s life.
She wrote:
There’s something about having kids that makes me want to be a better version
of my Jewish self. I want something special to pass on to them. Something more
than “You’re Jewish because I’m Jewish.”
(But) in
truth, I do not keep kosher and I don’t really want to. My husband is not
Jewish, though we’re raising our family to be. So, yeah, we eat tacos for
Shabbat dinner most weeks and usually skip Friday night services.
This is
the truth and I have to own it. I can only shift my life around so much without feeling inauthentic.Lying to my kids about my religious life is no way to
model the value of faith.
The
purpose of faith, as I understand it, is to infuse life with greater meaning.
To make it more real. Not to dress it
up. Not to pretend.
My kids
and I are on a journey together. We’re setting out for parts unknown.
And while
we may find ourselves changing as we trek along, there is a sacred quality in
simply being who we are today. Of stopping on the trail and taking a deep
breath. It’s enough, I think, to be exactly who we are, kosher or not.
So, I bet THAT’S not something you expected to hear
me preach about. In truth, I don’t
entirely agree with Laurel Snyder, but perhaps surprisingly, we’re not that far
apart. I too advocate trekking along. But I’d like that trek to be just a little bit
uphill.
Which brings
me to my second point. There are many
ways to be Jewish and many types of Jews. That was point number one. Of that I absolutely agree. But… and here’s number two: there are no
shortcuts. The climb needs to be
constant, the search relentless. We need
to transform what is into what ought to be.
Where we end up, who knows? Some
may keep strictly kosher, others less so.
For some it may suffice to travel to the ends of the earth to explore
their genealogy. But whatever we do
should not be lip service. It should be
all consuming. There is no easy way.
As we read
in “The Hobbit,” “Short cuts make for long delays.”
That point
is brought home to me every time I try to send an email on my iPhone, and the
autocorrect demonstrates that it never went to Hebrew School. Whenever I type in a Jewish word, this
supposed time saver jumps the gun and makes me sound very dumb.
Autocorrect was
intended as a remedy to having to constantly backtrack when texting on mobile
phones, where our enormous thumbs often wreak havoc on those minuscule
keypads. Using algorithms, it anticipates what you are trying to say and
completes the word for you. But time and
time again, I find myself wishing I had just turned off the shortcut and done
things the long way. Shortcuts are bad!
Some
examples:
I write the
word Seder, and my ipad jumps the gun gives me – sedation (“I need to
pour the four cups of wine for the second sedation Thursday night.”)
Yontiff - Pontiff.
Kipa – lips (“Joey, here is a clip for your lips.”)
Minyan – minivan
(“We need a tenth for our minivan”)
Kotel becomes
Kotex – not going there – and motel. (“The tearful Israeli soldiers had made it! They grasped the stones of the motel.”)
Glila – glitz
Musaf – missed
(I’m sure it was)
Tefillin – refilling
(actually rather profound)
Hol Hamoed –
Call Hemorrhoids (“The middle days of Pesach, Call Hemorrhoids, are
a nice break after the Sedation”)
And to give
some equal time to Sukkot, someone on Facebook posted the other day that
autocorrect had turned lulav and Etrog into “Lilac and estrogen.”
Tevila – revival
– not so far off / born again.
Huppah – humph
(a sad commentary on marriage)
And here’s
my all time favorite. Chosenness - chose
mess.
Yes, if
we’ve chosen to be Jewish, we’ve chosen a mess.
An enormous mishmash of history, ritual, ethics and imagination, worlds
created and destroyed, identities lost and recovered. There is no short cut to exploring it – or
explaining it. Being Jewish is a
life-long vocation. And it is – or it
should be – a lifelong labor of love.
God chose the long way in the Wilderness – not the coastal
route, in order for us to experience the many tests of those forty years of
wandering, a claim Moses himself makes in Deuteronomy chapter 8. Rabbi Rami Shapiro writes, “The hardships of
life are vehicles for growth. Each time we
confront the suffering life presents we grow stronger, more able to keep our
purpose…
There are no shortcuts to a full Jewish life.
Ten days of Birthright Israel cannot be enough. The ten days of Repentance can never be
enough. This week can only be a
springboard to a deeper commitment. The
era of the three day a year Jew is over.
There are many paths to Jewish
identity – but all of them are long, and all of them are uphill. It is not easy
to be a Jew.
Returning to
that striking midrash from yesterday, where God kept on destroying universe
after universe, creating new ones, and the crumpling them up again…. God was
simply modeling for us how to live our lives.
We can never be totally satisfied with where we are. We always need to be creating new worlds,
always embarking on new projects. Rabbi
Joseph Soloveitchik posits that the obligation to imitate God isn’t purely
about moral action, like feeding the hungry, but that it extends to God's
capacity to create, as well. We, like
God, are compelled to be creative, to be God-like, always to be inventing new
worlds.
In essence
we inherit the vast body of Jewish tradition from our ancestors – and then we reinvent
it. Judaism is renewed within each
of us, and by each of us. We don’t just
pass it down unopened. Judaism can’t be
regifted. Each of us is a living
Torah. And if what we reinvent is
radically different from the Judaism of our ancestors, so was theirs very different
from their ancestors’.
There are
common threads that link Laurel Snyder, Matisyahu and Moses, you and me. But it comes down not to any particular
ritual practice or theology. Certainly there
is monotheism, but that meant something very different to Moses than it does to
us. There are ethical common
denominators – like an abhorrence of child sacrifice, which we learned in
today’s Torah reading. There are cultural threads, like the embrace of
questioning, the engagement with the land and people of Israel, and the
striving for a perfected world. And,
perhaps most of all, there is the centrality of humanity – the eternal lessons
of loving the stranger and loving our neighbor as ourselves. As we’ve been tossed from empire to empire,
from Mesopotamia to Egypt to Rome to Arabia to Europe to America, we’ve never
given up on people. We’ve taken the best from each culture and given back to
that culture. We’ve never withdrawn, never stopped engaging, even when we’ve
had to daven on floors made of sand.
Speaking of
sand, there’s lots of sand in Moab. This
summer, I had the rare opportunity to gaze upon the Mountains of Moab on two
different continents. First, in Arches and
Canyonlands National Parks in Moab, Utah, and then, on the top of Masada,
staring out at the original Moab range, across the Dead Sea in Jordan. In both places the natural beauty is stark
and striking. Both have forbidding
landscapes. In Utah we literally drove
for hours without seeing a single human habitation. Israel has the natural beauty too, but what
makes it special is that every inch of that land is a place where
hundreds of generations of human beings have laughed and cried and striven. Layers
upon layers of civilizations. While all
people grapple with the predicament of being human, no group of people has done
it better and longer and more intensively, and under more challenging
conditions, than the Jews.
And when I
was at the Dead Sea, we passed the ancient community of Qumran, where the Dead
Sea Scrolls were found. If you saw the
Dead Sea Scrolls exhibit last winter in Manhattan, you learned about how they
came from a world of clashing visions of Judaism. Pharasees, Saducess, Essenes, all with very
different perspectives as to what it means to be a Jew. There was no Judaism back then, but many
Judaisms. Just as today.
But you also
may have discovered something else. The
excavations that yielded the scrolls yielded other treasures in the Judean
WIlderness. They yielded 30 pairs of
tefillin - phlacteries. In the box that
we wear on our heads, there are four separate compartments, each containing a
different text from the Torah. In the
box that we wear on our arms, there is only one compartment, containing all
four texts. On the head,
we celebrate our rich diversity, while on the arm, we celebrate our unity, or
ability to come together. Whenever we’ve
had to, the Jewish people have come together, setting differences aside.
There are
many ways to be Jewish. Many
Judaisms. But only one Jewish people.
And there
are no shortcuts to living a full Jewish life.
No matter
what path you take – being Jewish is not merely a path, but a destiny, and it
is a destiny that is shared …
…By
Matisyahu the bearded and shaven, by the Converso narrowly escaping death at
the hands of the Inquisition, by the Holocaust survivor who hides her identity. By Abraham and Isaac. By you and by me. We’re all bnei anusim. We are all Conversos. And we were all slaves as well.
No shortcuts
– Many paths – One People.
Amen.
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